First of all i would just like to apologize if my blog seems really depressing and whiny. I don’t want to sound like a five year old girl.
I use tumblr to get my feelings out there whenever i need someone to talk to and there is no one there. When i don’t feel comfortable talking to anyone for trust reasons i log onto tumblr and just say whats ever on my mind. I don’t fully trust any human being, except for one. And im so worried about losing her.
It’s weird… i dont trust anyone who is that close to me, but i say these things on tumblr for millions of strangers to read… idk… Have you ever read the book The Perks Of Being a Wallflower? that book is incredible. It’s about a kid who “anonymously” writes letter to an unknown “friend”. Thats what tumblr is to me. Just a friend for me to write about anything thats in my mind.
But i don’t wanna come out as someone who is always depressed. I’m really not. I love my life. I have a wonderful family, an amazing girlfriend, and great friends. I just get so paranoid that i will lose any of that. Sometimes i let my anxiety get to me. I wish there was a way for me to help with that, without taking any sort of drug for it. I really hate using medicine haha. Anyways i gotta get off now and get ready, a friend of mine is coming over
Love always,
….”Charlie”
